I cannot tell a lie. I am a relationship ninja, magician, and game show host.
I can make it look like I'm in love. I can be madly in love. Unfortunately, those two things can look the same. I can break up with them and leave them crushed, they can break up with me and leave me crushed...but in the end...when they're begging to have me back...I am the ninja.
They always end up crushed. I am a ninja. I will leave you agonized.
I can make it seem like I'm in it for the long haul. Years and years of my life can be devoted to you and I will never stray. But. I know how to get out. I know how to make myself seem so undesireable that he will back away. I am a magician. I break up with you and you think "thank god...that was getting a little scary" but then two hours later you're thinking "she was never like that before. i want the way she was back" I am a magician, I proceed to disappear.
A magician knows how to paint a vision and then make it all wipe away. So fast.
I can make a man take interest. I can make a man want to play the game. And I will offer the prizes, and he will be excited to be in a place where he could be winning the prizes. Then, he can do just one thing. And I can say "ohhhh I'm so sorry, you have lost the game! but you can have the prize of being my friend instead"
And. he is confused and sometimes angry and he feels cheated out of his prize.
But. I win.
I always win. In the end.
Because I'm not going to let anyone take advantage of me, I refuse to be the cold broken old woman. I am the young talented full of life woman.
And though sometimes it takes me quite a while to figure it out, I always find that part of myself again...
Then.
I win.
Does it make me a bitch? Perhaps.
But, when I do find the one man who really makes me feel loved and not owned or used or like a whore, then I will become student of love instead of a student of manipulation.
until that day.
I will always win.
because I can.
because I am worth more than that.
because I am smart and beautiful and above all loveable.
Just like all of you.
